frustrations.

you cannot control the outcome. you cannot control the results. you have no say.

you thought you have given your best.
then it hits you hard on your face telling you that your best is not good enough.

you ask yourself, how much better do i have to be?
you ask yourself, how much more do i have to give?
you ask yourself, how much more time do i have?

you ask yourself questions you have no answers to.

you ask yourself.. why am i so frustrated. oh my soul, why are you so downcast?

why. so much frustrations!

emotions.

last post: friday, june 12, 2009.
today: tuesday, september 15, 2015.

6 years since i last posted here.

it has been a long while since i last allowed myself to pen down my emotions. emotions that are meant to be kept in a box. emotions that are supposed to mean nothing to me.

emotions. :)

Spring Festival 2009.

I'm Yours- Jason Mraz

A little about SNU

Seoul National University...


2009 SNU Entrance Ceremony

Marks the beginning of a whole new journey. :)

Building 925, Room 111

This my room.

future..

Its 12.45am, my sleeping time. 4 more days, I will be sitting for an exam that will determine part of my future. It seems like I have so many exams that will determine my future. Which one really does actually? Haha. SPM? STPM? KLPT? TEPS?

It has been 6 months since I am away from home. On a positive note, I will be going back in another 6 months! Wait for me my friends! (Hey I mean, wait for me and not souvenirs :p).

I think the real examination that determines my future is this:
The life I am living right now.

The “everyday” I am living. What I think and what I do. Where I decide to go today will determine where I will end up later.

I hope I am on the right track and all ready to slam the accelerator! Hang on my future, I am so-coming! God, I need Your help.

Korean level 4 is tough. There are tons of words that I have to memorize and honestly I’m forgetting so many of them. Overloaded.

Well, keep me in prayers and wish me luck :) Happy new year everyone!!

autumn in S.Korea

Little did I know about the weather in Korea and now it is officially autumn/ fall. I usually walk to class and that long walk takes 15 minutes every day. I am obviously not prepared for the change, having only a cardigan is not good enough. I was freezing for 15 minutes on the way to class and another 15 minutes back from class today.

I learned that fall is a depressing season from a professor. He said, many Koreans commit suicide during this season.

“Fall” he said “is depressing because all the leaves fall and it makes people lonely. A person’s spirit fall as well.”

Somewhat interesting, isn’t it?

Mountain of God

This song reminds me that I am never alone. Life has never been easy, but He is always there, today tomorrow and forever. :-)

by Third Day - Mountain of God.

Thought that I was all alone
Broken and afraid
But You were there with me
Yes, You were there with me

And I didn't even know
That I had lost my way
But You were there with me
Yes, You were there with me

'Til You opened up my eyes
I never knew
That I couldn't ever make it
Without You

Even though the journey's long
And I know the road is hard
Well, the One who's gone before me
He will help me carry on
After all that I've been through
Now I realize the truth
That I must go through the valley
To stand upon the mountain of God

As I travel on the road
That You have lead me down
You are here with me
Yes, You are here with me
I have need for nothing more
Oh, now that I have found
That You are here with me
Yes, You are here with me

I confess from time to time
I lose my way
But You are always there
To bring me back again

Sometimes I think of where it is I've come from
And the things I've left behind
But of all I've had, what I possessed
Nothing can quite compare
With what's in front of me
With what's in front of me